luv hate

men.. we luv em...we hate em..
how n when will i figure them out?
no one knows.
fk i dont think i ever will.

*for the meantime...we gurls have our friends..booze..and the whiskey

douche

so im back. back to work, back to calgary.
i took a (very very much deserved) week off from work.
really, its jus a week, u may not jump at the thought cuz yea.. its never enuff. but understand u must, i havent taken any holidays last year. so this, i shd say, is a milestone.
~~so i started my week off by powershopping at holt renfrew with nonetheless, my fave shopping buddy, chris.
luv luv chris to pieces. he's prolly the closest guy friend ive had. and its due to the fact that hes gay. luv him even more wit kelvin.
neways, he bought kelvin the uberfabuluos gucci wallet with a matching money clip for their anniversary/valentine's. oh how we all envy kelvin.
and i got my poorbrokeself some more beauty products. orgasm blush by nars, new nailpolish from chanel, and laura mercier stuff ie. almond cocnut perfume and body scrub (yummmm..and smells divine).
~~next day chris audrey n i met downtown for lunch. then i headed to get some "work" done. it wus painful, and i really am hoping its worth it. can not disclose wut this is about, bcuz i believe that letting people kno, defeats the purpose. sorry to disappoint.
~~wednesay. early morning, i flew down to victoria. i wus expecting it to be more like vancouver. very surprised when i landed cuz it seemed sooo smalltown-ish, but dont get me wrong, its a very very beautiful city, one would be lucky to live there.
i wus right, its very laidback n simple, it has a lot of character tho. 90% of the people i saw were students, they say its so much similar to halifax. ugh. yea the thought still haunts me, no matter/however i escape.
i came to realize how fast paced calgary had become. people i meet from back east say this all the time, and i never really paid that much attention till now. ive also thought of being on my own. id luve to move out soon, and if i do, it will have to be victoria. i dont see the point of doing so, in calgary. its a good idea, so really i dont want to kill it with any unecessary planning (bcuz u kno wut happens when i plan.)
had a great time with my cuzins, spent most of the time talking to ate carol about stuff, life, and everything else in between. yea its good to vent everything out and its equally good to kno that sumone out there shares the same frustrations that u have. so, it wus a good trip all around.
*oh and did i mention that i met this cute dude, haha. no worries cuz it wus nothing.
~~i came back sunday. i felt like i missed work. actually lemme get that straight workfriends. haha.
~~ok lately ive been hormone addled. i cant stop eating. nething in front of me i eat, and yet im at the nearest fastfood in like mach speed. not only that, but everything else associated with hormone outbreak, u name it.
~~i met my brazilian last night, and got some things sated out. for the first time i felt like i missed him. mehh. again, maybe its jus the hormones. met his friends. and he wanted to meet mine. well, i didnt think i wus ready for that.
~~same night. went to hang out wit the gurls at jen mc's place (which is like a couple of blocks away from mine.) and i finally met jen's set up. he's really really cute, blond hair, blue eyes, a body builder, superfunny. wut wus i waiting for all this time??? shes been trying to set us up for 2 or 3 months now! (we all kno the answer to this. my twisted mind had decided to move to halifax. ugh.). we had pizza, played the stupid game cranium, and made drinks that no one actually drank. oooh and he made me his favourite drink **brownie points, its very good by the way. so by the end of the night gurlfriends n i r drunk. bad bad move. cuz if im not mistaken, and as many many resources out there point out, one should never be intoxicated when trying to impress sumone. ive ruined it havent i? gahhhhh.



***ok, due to unusually high levels of im assuming, female hormones. i better stop myself. or i might start blogging the unnecessary. and elaborately explain all the explicit details that im sure u all r dying to hear. so yea, jus to save face, or wutever thats left of it.

in over my head

they say that the best way to get over a man, is to find another one.
lemme tell u.. it does not fken work.
went on a dinner date with my brazilian last night (yes im still stringing him along,
and yes, he still havent given up), had a great great time (and i actually got to
kno him a lil better). problem wus, i wus thinking about sumbody else,
the entire time.
A lil while ago, ive planned on being in halifax, at this time.
honestly, it hurts that im not.
and it hurts even more to have to be with sumbody else.
(k i borrowed that line from mr ben harper)

So i thought that by finding all these distractions, it'll make this go away.
I worked overtime. Party'ed my sorrows away. Booked my tickets to Victoria.
Went to dates. Agreed to be set up for future dates. Spent every free time at the gym
(thus the strained knee and overworked shoulders.)
But none helps.
:'(



i luve me some ben harper.. nothing more then perfect.

needless n unnecessary..but my shrink advised me to post one

i kno. me posting another one of these, its getting pathetic. but i have nothing that interesting to write (or i do, but im not allowed to put them in print haha sorry suckers).


1. The phone rings. Who do you want it to be?' Jamil :D

2. When shopping at the grocery store,do you return your cart?' fk yea, i need my loonie back!!

3. In a social setting, are you moreof a talker or a listener?' well it depends on the setting right..but idk i guess im the talker most of the time.

4. Do you take compliments well?' yea u hear them all day and only half r true. so u learn how to bs the bs'er, kno wut i mean?

5. Do you play Sudoku?' yea when i feel like bein smart.

6. If abandoned alone in thewilderness, would you survive?' id like to think that i would

8. Did you ever go to camp as a kid?' nope. :( i wish i did

9. What was your favorite game as akid?' hopscotch

10. If a sexy person was pursuing you,but you knew he/she was married, wouldyou?' haha, idk i dont think so

12. Could you date someone withdifferent religious beliefs than you?' no

13. Do you like shopping at spencers?' yea, they have some naughty stuff, its fun to go esp with gurlfriends. i bought my first pair of handcuffs at spencers the last time haha

14. Use three words to describeyourself?' tough one...hmm, pottymouth, rude, self deprecating (none of the above r true of course, believe me :D )

15. Do any songs make you cry?' not really no

16. Are you continuing your education?' yea this fall..hopefully

17. Do you know how to shoot a gun?' no :S, there r times that i wish i did

18. If your house was on fire, whatwould be the first thing you grabbed?‘ my purse? idk

19. How often do you read books?‘ whenever i can.. i try to read before i go to bed

20. Do you think more about the past,present or future?‘ FUTURE for sure, altho im tomorrowphobe, i hate planning it and the thought of it gives me the hives

21. What is your favorite children'sbook?' puss n boots

22.What color are your eyes?‘ dark brown

23. How tall are you?‘ 5'6"

24. Where is your dream house located?‘ idk, i havent thought of my dream house yet. pls refer to question#20 for further juxtapose

27. Have you ever taken pictures in aphoto booth?‘ yea i think i once did

28. When was the last time you were atOlive Garden?‘ oooh quite a while back... mightve been last year

30. Where was the furthest place youtraveled today?‘ lols, hmmm my lito sis/bro's school

32. Do you like mustard?‘ mehhh

33. Do you prefer to sleep or eat?‘ sleeeeep

34. Do you look like your mom or dad?‘ they say i do, look like mum, i refuse to agree

35. How long does it take you in theshower?’ depending on the day, most days im done at 15

36. Can you do the splits?‘ haha, u crazy?

37. What movie do you want to seeright now?‘ ghostrider...can not waitt

39. What did you do for New Year's?‘ huge feast with family..followed by a huge pseudo-party with my co-conspirators ie cuzins.. spent countdown with friends and jamil (and almost pissed my pants watching chris make a fool of his drunkself) and made sweet luv..haha ;)

40. Do you think The Grudge was scary?‘ not at all

42. Do you own a camera phone?‘ yeah

44. Was your mom a cheerleader?‘ hahhaahahahhahaha the thought of it..hahahhaha sorry

45. What's the last letter of yourmiddle name?‘ E

47. How many hours of sleep do you geta night?‘ around 6

48. Do you like care bears?' when i wus a kid yea...

49. What do you buy at the movies?‘ popcorn :D

50. Do you know how to play poker?‘ nope

51.Do you wear your seatbelt?‘ yea we all have to, cmon..

52. What do you wear to sleep?‘ pj's most of winter/spring/fall, and nothing on summer..haha jk jk

53. Anything big ever happen in yourhometown?‘ uhhhhhhhhh...its cowtown..uhhhh idk flames?? haha so sad

54. How many meals do you eat a day?‘ 2 , my little snacks here n there
not included

55. Is your tongue pierced?‘ nope. eeww, never. so tacky.

56. Do you always read bulletins?‘ no

58. Do you like funny or seriouspeople better?‘ idk both

59. Ever been to L.A.?‘ no

60. Did you eat a cookie today?‘ no

61. Do you use cuss words in otherlanguages?' no

62. Do you steal or pay for your musicdownloads?‘ haha, and who pays???

63. Do you hate chocolate?‘ wut?????? who hates chocolate??? how can u hate chocolate??? i, for a fact, am in luve with chocolate. cant get enuff of it. once u go..u aint comin back..hahha (im hoping that people who read this crap actually understand my sick mind, its not as fun if u dont)

64. What do you and your parents fightabout the most?‘ me..being out too much and not answering my phone when im out

65. Are you a gullible person?' hhaa at times

66. Do you need a boyfriend/girlfriendto be happy?‘ nope

67. If you could have any job(assuming you have the skills) whatwould it be?‘ assuming i have skills???? fk i kno i have skills!!!

68. Are you easy to get along with?‘ yea

69. What is your favorite time of day?‘ end of day

halifax

u kno honestly i like the name HALIFAX. ha lee faxx. it even sounds sexy. gah i sound like a freak.
but other than that wut else is with or at halifax?
its a slow, small-town city.
they have beaches.
apparently they have good schools***

but cmon. halifax???
i dont get it at all.


altho at the moment, id rather be in halifax than newhere else in the world.
oh pls let it be summer already...

lonesome friday

~Whats your middle name?
** lucille..jus like lucille ball..or anthony hamilton's other song

~How big is your bed?
** really big.. its queen. and everyone wants it (not in that sly way)

~What are you listening to right now?
** j's playlist.. maxwell's this woman's worth

~What are the last 4 digits in your
cellphone number?
** ahahahaha, same as work's. im such a geek i kno.

~What was the last thing you ate?
** shrimp curry mmmmmmm

~Last person you hugged?
** j

~How is the weather right now?
** fk woke up n surprised to see snow.. 'where did that come from????' sneaky sneaky weather huh

~Who was the last person you talked to
on the phone?
** my brazilian teehe

~What is the first thing u notice in
the opposite sex?
** SHOES, and clothes (sounds so material i admit) and evrything else, ooh and the bum (_|_) haha

~Favorite type of Food.
** italian italian italian

~Do you want children?
** ?????????? :S :S :S

~Do you drink?
** socially

~Ever get so drunk you don't remember
the entire night?
** nope

~Hair color?
** reddish brown, with black highlights..idk ive always been confused. its fab tho hah

~Eye colour?
** dark brown

~Do you wear contacts/glasses?
** nopes

~Favorite HOLIDAY?
** my holidays..cuz their paid and u get to go sumplace NICE

~Favorite Season?
** summer for sure..

~Have you ever cried over a girl/boy?
** unfortunately yes.. but that wus like 5 yrs ago ie. i wus a kid

~Last Movie you Watched?
** blood diamond

~What books are you reading?
** at the moment.. maneater, i still have to finish it. audreys gona kick my arse, i kno i can already feel it.

~Piercings?
** ears

~Favorite Movie?
** closer

~Favorite college football Team?
** uhhhhhh, to be honest, i dont watch ne other sport but tennis. call it lame, i dont give a sht. i have an excuse..im so unathletic that my eyes reject the visual presence of sports, i get really really bad rash.

~What were you doing before filling
this out?
** msn'ed and texted my hommies

~Any pets?
** nope

~Dogs or cats?
** ive got no pets

~Favorite Flower?
** sunflower

~Have you ever loved someone?
** huh. idk.

~Who would you like to see right now?
** j... and no one else.

~Have you ever fired a gun?
** no :S

~Do you like to travel by plane?
** its alright, bearable.

~Right-handed or Left-handed?
** righty

~If you could go to any place right
now where would you go?
** HALIFAX haha, go ahead n laugh. im serious.

~Are you missing someone?
** yesssssssss

~Do you have a tattoo?
** yesssssssss

~Do you still watch cartoons on
Saturday mornings?
** lols saturday mornings? ive never had a saturday off for years. and trust me if i had, i wont be spending it infront of the fkn tv

~Are you hiding something from
someone?
** dont we all???

~ARE YOU 18?
** no :S

~WHAT IS THE WALLPAPER ON YOUR
CELLPHONE?
** my porno.. lols (inside joke). j's pic

~DID YOU GET ENOUGH SLEEP LAST NIGHT?
** i never get enuff sleep no matter wut the day is

~FIRST THING YOU THOUGHT ABOUT THIS
MORNING?
** wut am i wearing today?

~WHAT DO YOU HAVE HANDY AT YOUR
BEDSIDE?
** laptop

~GRILLED OR FRIED?
** grilled

~WHAT MAKES YOU UNIQUE?
** uhhhhhhh i have no idea. ill get back on this next time.

~ARE YOU AFRAID OF THE DARK?
** nope never

~FAVORITE HANGOUT?
** whiskey

~3 THINGS YOU CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT?
** work, family, shoes

~FAVORITE SONG?
** ive lots.. at the moment. wind for me by r kells and akon/sean p

~WHAT ARE YOU AFRAID OF?
** lots of things

~ARE YOU A GIVER OR TAKER?
** both

~WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES?
** anna, anney

~WHAT IS YOUR DADS MIDDLE NAME?
** cant say...privacy policy hah

~WHATS YOUR MOTHERS MIDDLE NAME?
** same

~STUCK ON A DESERTED ISLAND & COULD
TAKE ONE THING?
** j

~FAVORITE T.V. COMMERCIAL?
** that one with the crv

~WHO'S YOUR CELL PHONE PROVIDER?
** rogers, cuz ive got sum corporate discount, otherwise i think id be better off with telus

~FIRST THING YOU'LL SAVE IN A FIRE?
** my shoes?

~Whats your favorite color?
** red

~WHAT ARE THE THINGS YOU ALWAYS TAKE
WITH YOU?
** car, cellphone, debit card

~WHAT DID YOU WANNA BE WHEN YOU WERE A
KID?
** a lawyer

~WHAT DO YOU USUALLY DO WHEN THE CLOCK
TURNS 11:11?
** idk. am i spose to be doing sumthing special?

~THE COLOR OF YOUR BEDSHEEt?
** red

~WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT BEFORE YOU GO
TO BED?
** wut to wear tomorrow.. wut to read.. wut cd to play.. wuts my bank balance.. wut r my plans for tomorrow.. wut time shd i wake up.. wut bs am i in this time.. how to fix bs.. and other silly stuff that we gurls obsess about before we go to bed.

auld lang syne

to find the time to blog on holidays shows one's prolific talent. right.
to find the time to read sumbody else's blog is a different story. lurk out lurkers, and happy new year.

neways..hope everyone had a busy and fanstastic holiday season. breathe easy, cuz its far from being over.
my mums literelly chastising me for being out 'too much' ie everyday/everynight. meh.
afterall, im all but a wolf (inside joke i think only noorin will understand, lol nonethe less).
lemme jus highlight the memorable..
thursday night. audrey called n practically dragged my arse to see her immediately after work for a short dinner, jus to find myself sitting in front of her, claude and his (very very very adorable) kid. thoughtful that its wus some light pun on my failed match making with audrey n claude (see previous posts for reference lol.
and then i met the head rushing.. sexiest man (IMO)ive seen. my IDEAL ideal ideal man, head to toe. and ive had the most deliriously intoxicating time since then.
he'll be leaving in a week. its almost like, u ache and at the same time be enticed. its true.
we always want wut we cant have.